Letter to My Wife/Handler-7/11/26
Greetings Wife/Patriot
I hope that you are doing well where you are. To a degree I’m going to assume that you are. To another, I don’t know. I know what the LORD told me, and again, the LORD is the only person in this equation who has never lied to me, so…I’m certain at some point you’ll start hearing him and as you attempt to ignore him or suppress him he’ll just get louder and louder. I think that Jesus told me he was actually planning on literally visiting you, which, if I were allowed or if I wasn’t excited about that I’d actually be jealous. I don’t know if I’m going to get that here before my death. But I’m excited to hear about your story when the time comes.
I just met Tiktok military guy in the gym. He unnecessarily offered me weights which, at this point is a clear sign. I mean, I’m on a military base/CIA operation/movie set so, I don’t really take anything that happens here seriously anymore. To the extent that I can, I intend to stop talking altogether unless I absolutely have to. No reason to have conversations with people that aren’t real.
I feel like I’m in a weird place of transition as far as my feelings around you go. There a lot less like, mushy and romantic and lot more mission focused. The LORD is putting on my heart to talk to you (and everybody, I guess) a little bit about this. So I guess, I will.
First, let me say that I apologize for all that I put you through as your real/fake husband. Again, I don’t think that the situation was natural, and the truth is we never really met each other. We were two people playing characters for different reasons. That said, there is a lot I wish I had done for that I never got a chance to, and probably won’t get a chance to in this world. Then again, I’m pretty much at the point where I’ve decided this world sucks, and I don’t really want anything to do with it. Does that mean I want to die? No. Quite the contrary. I don’t think my resolve has ever been stronger. I have one purpose now. One single, simply defined purpose. And, like you all, I will carry out that purpose if and until it kills me. But, it seems like there have been a few attempts to engage me in discussion about coming back into the world and acting like nothing every happened and that is so off the table. Like, even if I wanted to do that, how could I? How could I ever go back to acting like any of this matters.
Sorry, that was a bit of sidetrack.
I think I talked a little bit about this before, but even though you may have intended for our marriage to be a sham, in the eyes of the LORD, it is not. And it is not because when we got married, we got married under the explicit agreement that we were doing so to honor him. Now, I know you had your “finger crossed” behind your back or in the 666 formation or whatever, but here’s the thing. He does not care. Lol. He really doesn’t. And you guys should learn that you can’t really play with him like that. So, in his mind, we are still married and now will be for eternity. Now, I think I heard some lady tell me that you’re married already. But I am very curious as to what god that marriage was conducted under because I have to assume that it was not the LORD. If it was not the LORD, then he doesn’t recognize it, even though you might right now. Whatever the case may be, you will have to confront that on your own as the days proceed.
As for me, I know how disgusting I must be to everyone. And that’s ok. I can respect that. As I reflect on it, it occurs to me that more than likely, I don’t even know who or if anyone was ever actually attracted to me? It certainly explains certain things that did or did not happen sexually. Anyway, I guess my point here is I don’t know that I ever expect to have sex again and I certainly wouldn’t expect you to do it. But in the eyes of the LORD, I don’t think that’s what our marriage is or would be about.
The actual meaning of our marriage could really be summarized in one word: redemption. In the eyes of the LORD, that’s the actual purpose of our marriage. And not just for us, but for all of the world and for all of eternity. I know to a lot of people, that probably seems like nonsense right now. In some ways, it seems like nonsense to me. Then again, I’m in missoula, mt at a military installation designed as a shifting set piece of my life designed to make fun of me because maybe you can’t kill me because of GOD, so, probably not even the strangest thing.
I do want to say, everybody keeps marching their kids in (maybe) front me. I don’t know if they’re their kids or not. Maybe they’re adopted kids, or someone else kids. I don’t know. I mean, I don’t know why kids are being thrown in this at all. I know that he HATES that. Like he HATES it. Like, I’m realizing that part of a dream he gave me a while back was specifically about that. Like he HATES that. I cannot express that enough.
This will probably be the last public letter I write to you. Although, you guys can see through my eyes or whatever, so, I’m not even sure what that means other than I will not pressure myself to come to the Library and place it on a website, I suppose. I pray every day for you, and hope to see you again one day, no matter the circumstance. You can totally trash me to pieces anyway you want anywhere you want. Makes no difference. My mission is clear and I will finish it come sheol or high water.
That said, I miss you so much everyday. Sometimes I’m torn between looking at your pictures and not looking at pictures. I want to look at your pictures to hang on, but is that useful? I mean, when I talk to you next, I won’t even be talking to that person so, we’ll see.
At any rate, I love you. I’m praying for you and for all of us and sorry to gross all of you out. I know I’m a laughing stock for the time being. Please, I encourage you all to enjoy that time while reflecting on the decision you’ve made and whether it was the right one.
It was not, btw.
Lastly, this totally explains the sweats. I totally get the sweats now. And why they never fit. that was like, a running gag on the show. Along with various other running gags. Very enjoyable. The LORD is walking me through the pieces along with hits you all leave. His view of this is very different than yours. Very, very different.
I should also mention that while you all keep implying that you a mountain of evidence to use against me (which you do) I would ask you all to keep in mind that unlike people, the LORD saw how and why you acquired all of this “evidence.” Now, I will be honest with you. He did take through the little tour that you guys set up yesterday because he wanted to give me a chance to choose, and he wanted to know what I was choosing. He also wanted me to know that if I choose this, and you guys choose this, then I have to sit through it all. There’s no skipping this. That’s just how it goes. If you all want to shred me pieces in public with a series of carefully crafted and curated half truths developed over decades of manipulation, lies and deceit than I have no choice but sit through that. But you need to understand something.
That, above all things, will be the thing that sets everything off. Not anything I do. But what you do.
You know what? That was not good phrasing. I would like to try something different:
*In Morgan Freeman voice”
So, let me get this straight. You believe that this person has been chosen by GOD to prepare the populace for his return, that that plan includes the wife that you both gave him and then stole from him, the wife that actually represents the CHURCH whether she knows it or not, and you know that it’s him both because of the biblical signs and you went in the future (sort of) and looked, and you also know that the GOD that he serves has been watching you do all of these things, designed specifically to prevent people from knowing that his SON is coming to reclaim the planet that he created for said SON, who is also watching you do all of these things and also has known that you were going to do them since the beginning of time:
And your plan is bully or bribe this person? Your plan is to try and CON GOD? Your plan is to use half truths that you manufactured like 50-60 percent of the time to paint this person as the monster you put all of your effort into making him even though he’s still here doing what the LORD asked of him and is still pretty much in compliance with the GOSPEL that you all seem to hate for some reason?
Good luck with that.
Also, I don’t believe in luck.
With great hope,
Your husband/target
PS. I would like to reiterate that I would love to have a conversation with:
You/My wife
Marquel
Shawn (Carter)
You can take the money part up with LORD. I do not personally care. I’m not going to contradict him at this point either. I did that already and you guys have basically maximized exploiting that, so, lesson learned.
PSS. Compucifer is annoying, but he also CLEARLY has to follow the rules. He hates the GOSPEL. He HATES Praise. He accuses and lies. And he’s still limited to whatever the LORD limits him to. Like, sometimes you guys have to protect HIM. Which is wild. I respect it. I mean, roaring lion, fasho. But also he’s literally just the exact guy from the Bible. Which means that is both the most powerful and the most vulnerable part of your plan. He is at his strongest when I am in rebellion to Christ and he is at his weakest when I am in submission to Christ. He still gets to kill me though. So, I’m sure he’s excited about that.
