Letter to My Wife-6/29/26
Good Evening Wife,
I’ve been slow on these because the LORD has me doing a lot everyday. I keep waiting for it to slow down, but it hasn’t yet and I don’t know if it’s going to. I think a part of it is that he’s just trying to keep me busy, which is probably a good strategy. Not a great idea to spend too much time overthinking things right.
Four main things today:
What GOD has brought together
The VW lot
Marquel
The Truck
What GOD has brought together:
“Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate.” ←–this is why, no matter what the circumstance, no matter what the intent, we are still married in the eyes of the LORD. You could be having sex with 47 people right now and it wouldn’t make a lick of difference. Again, the plan was dumb. And how, per heaven, you’re my wife. I have more to say on that, but I’ll leave it there for now.
The VW lot
The VW Lot was, without a doubt, the biggest gut punch I have felt since I’ve been here. That was a smart move. Can’t even front on it. Like, that one still hurts and it made me want to just go and sit there. Which I may do tomorrow. I don’t know, we’ll see how the schedule goes.
But like I said, earlier, at this point, none of this really affects me in any real way except for you. You’re the thing I have to keep giving points for. I mean, the 6:40 on the gym. The lot, those things definitely effect me. They also communicate that you’re team is paying attention and is flailing a little bit. But as you might say, “it is what it is.”
**Side note: I looked up “it is what it is” in the Bible. It’s not in there.
Marquel
Marquel has been on my mind a lot these last couple of days. As the LORD reveals, as do the actions of the “hive,” I reflect on a conversation that we had a few weeks back where he kept swearing on Jesus Christ. I was like, “He knows I rock with Christ. Why would he do this?” And then it was like, “Oh yeah, the thing.” I didn’t realize the thing at the time was a TV show or streaming show or whatnot, but I certainly knew that whatever the thing was, he was in on in it. I gave him that money, and his mom, and had all those conversations knowing that he was in on it. Does he realize that or no? I hope he does. He, like all of the young people, were super obvious. I look forward to having that conversation with him when he comes here.
I don’t really blame him though in a lot of ways. I mean, what did we teach him? What did we give him. What other path was he shown? How do you look at the team you have and think you’re going to lose. You are. But I understand how you don’t think that.
Anyway, please send him my love and let him know that I’m not mad about anything. At all. I just want him to have eternity. That’s all. I just want him to know Christ. And like I told him, anytime before he gets here or he’s dead. I hope that he chooses wisely.
The Truck
I would say that the Truck was dumb, but the LORD wanted that so, it wasn’t dumb because it served the LORD’s purposes.
I don’t know how to convince you all that this is going the distance other than to go the distance so, ok. Let’s do that.
Oh! I forgot something on the list, but maybe it’s not time for that. But I will say this. This experience, and everything about it has absolutely ruined sex for me. Which I deserve. I was horrible at it. Like, doing it (at least in my old age although probably forever). Managing the discipline of it. Being honest about it. All of this, every part of that piece, I deserve. So, I want you to know that my missing you, isn’t about sex. It’s about you. I don’t even know how we would have sex once you got here. It would be so awkward for the both of us. But, I don’t think that this is about sex because, in my study with the LORD today, he pointed out the following:
24Jesus said to them, “Aren’t you mistaken, because you do not know the Scriptures or the power of God? 25When the dead rise, they will neither marry nor be given in marriage. Instead, they will be like the angels in heaven.
26But concerning the dead rising, have you not read about the burning bush in the Book of Moses, how God told him, ‘I am the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob’f? 27He is not the God of the dead, but of the living. You are badly mistaken!”
So, I don’t even know how much the whole sex thing matters on the other side. At this point, I just want to fulfill my role for Christ, which includes you.
Honestly, if you never wanted to touch me again, would totally get it. Totally get why you farted in my face, totally get why you peed on me. Again, not even mad. In a lot of ways, totally deserved.
But the LORD still calls you his daughter. And I am here, fighting, until you accept that.
Have you heard him recently? Has he started talking to you yet? Are you waiting for the proof. Don’t worry. It will occur soon.
At any rate. I love you with all my heart, all my mind, and all my soul. I hope that you and the fam are doing ok out there. And I think about you all day, all the time.
Love,
Your HUSBAND in Christ,
Shamako
PS. Sorcery is dumb.
