“Do not gloat over me, my enemy!
    Though I have fallen, I will rise.
Though I sit in darkness,
    the Lord will be my light.”-Micha 8:7

LORD, if I am making the incorrect decision, may you intervene as needed. 

I am an addict and an alcoholic. I don’t know if I’ve ever been fully sober a full day in my adult life. Maybe one or two. 

I started with Porn at a very early age. Then alcohol and then weed. If I’m honest, these activities have been a part of my make up since at least the age of 14 years old. Over the years on various occasions, I’ve had varying degrees of success or failure over them. I have to concede that. 

Salvation is a gift. And the LORD didn’t sacrifice himself for just the sins that you already know about. I am living proof. I am the absolute worst possible follower of Christ there could be. I mean, I am just really bad at it. I literally just threw away a vape before writing this. I have strong reason to believe that one of the things that will play out shortly, is that as I make this message known, something or someone out there, will use my sin. Because that is what Satan does. 

And here’s the truth. In some ways, whatever heads my way, I probably deserve it. I am a sinner. I deserve death. Additionally, I don’t think I’m a credible source. I don’t think that you should take my word for anything. Because the truth is, I am nowhere near self-controlled. I’m not going to give up all of the details, because I will leave it in the hands of the LORD who and what I confess to. But I am clear that I am not anything close to a finished product. I have no moral authority at all, and nothing I am saying on any of this website is on that basis. 

I’ve dealt with this. And the LORD has on more than one occasion, and in more than several ways, made it clear that it would be his preference that I rely on him. But I am stiff necked, stubborn and hard headed. And thus, I will probably have to suffer the consequence of my sin. I will admit what I’ve done. I will take ownership of what I don’t. May the LORD be my witness. I trust in him, more than anything on this earth, the one that he 100 percent created, btw. In 7 days. 

However, if those who serve satan want to validate this word by taking action, then May the LORD have mercy on us all. 

Let the dominoes fall where they may.